As laid out in previous blog entries, I have decided to call it a day on my Phoenix activities, but I still feel that I have something to offer the local live music scene. I was thinking of starting a Plymouth wide live music gig photography website, surprisingly livemusicphotography.co.uk is still available, and that will give me a lot more scope for featuring local music on the web, as there doesn’t seem to be a dedicated live music photography website out there. Originally this is what Phoenix Live was meant to be, but it evolved into much more, but I would like to get back to photography, and none of the review bullshit, which is what dragged me down more than anything else. It’s almost a shame to let Phoenix Live die, but I don’t have the motivation to continue, and apart from Dani, no-one has shown any genuine interest in helping to keep the site running, so this is the way it has to be, I am not changing my mind like I did last time, despite all the nice comments that have been made about me and what I did for the local scene. I actually feel a little guilty and almost feel like I am letting the community down, but I really need to put my own health and happiness first, something which I haven’t been doing for some time now. It’s incredibly hard to just walk away after two years at the Phoenix, the people there have almost become like a second family to me, which makes the decision all the harder. Although thinking about starting up a separate photography website, I still have a motivation problem at the moment, I don’t seem to be able to sit down at the computer and do anything productive or creative right now, and its been that way for about six months, it’s almost like working in Derrys has stifled my creative instincts, which is strange as I used to love creating websites and graphics, seems that a lot is changing in my life at the moment, maybe I am just getting tired and just want an ordinary life.