You are probably wondering what the hell I am on about… so here’s the story, many years ago, I used to knock up websites for just about anyone that wanted one, just for fun. But now I find it hard to motivate myself to even open up Dreamweaver; then when I do get enough motivation to open Dreamweaver I open up a new document, and suddenly I don’t have any inspiration or desire to actually design anything, even a basic table structure is beyond me at the moment. I really want to build up Plymouth Music Scene into a fully featured site, but at the same time, I don’t want to put in the effort to make it happen. Have things actually gotten that bad that I can’t be bothered to even design the most basic of websites, or even spend much time on the computer. There was a time when the computer was on 24/7, but now the computer is on for less than 2 hours per day, and most of that is sat idle. I really don’t know what happened to my motivation, I used to love working on the computer, but lately I almost despise the bloody thing, just using it to check how the forum is getting on, checking Email and myspace, then I’ll sit down and watch some TV and generally not move from there. Seems like I am stuck in a rut that I don’t know how to get out of, work is well, work, physically draining, so all I want to do is chill out when I get home, and I really don’t want to use my brain in any way, shape or form, I would like to do more with my life, but I am lacking motivation to do much else than go to the pub, and I can’t even do that at the moment because of cash flow issues just to add to my depression!