…It’s hard, but that’s enough to my sexual readiness state. I am so convinced that Ali is the one now after our conversation on the phone tonight, we are both on the same page about what we want, and the L word has been mentioned, and it’s a mutual feeling. It’s been a whirlwind romance really, things have moved so quickly, but we are trying to keep our feet on the ground until we meet, which is only three weeks away now. I finally have found that special person to spend the rest of my life with after 30 years of looking, and I really couldn’t be happier. Ali is the most special unique person I have met, loving, caring, compassionate, passionate, intelligent, sexy and beautiful, she has so much going for her, I am amazed that she wants to be with me, just as she is as amazed that I want to be with her (why wouldn’t I?). There’s so many things I love about her, her personality, her pretty face, her eyes, her smoking hot body, her voice, it all makes for one amazing package. It’s like two lost souls coming together, I don’t believe in fate, but this has almost made me a believer, of all the men on myspace, Ali decided to contact me, and now here we are, feeling love for each other after just 10 days, it’s been a totally crazy experience, but a very happy one for both of us. Our weekend together is going to be fantastic for many reasons, but mainly because I will get to meet the one I love for the first time, and I am full of nervous excitement, it’s not every day you get to meet the person you want to spend the rest of your life with.
I am starting to think moving into a shared house was a mistake. I have never noticed it before now as I worked every other Saturday night, but the guy that lives in the front room in the house seems to have parties all the time on weekends, and all his mates come around and get drunk, slam doors, throw up in the back yard and break things annoying others in the house. The people that I actually like in the house. Jason and Laura are moving because of it. I hope that Ali makes her move down here quickly so we can find a place together, I don’t want live in this house with Ali, we need a flat for some privacy, which wouldn’t happen here, but I guess we’ll be making enough noise of our own… if you get what I mean? Not that I take that for granted, but we both find each other incredibly attractive, some of our conversations haven’t exactly been clean. It’s not like we are jumping into bed straight away, we will have known each other almost five weeks before anything can happen.
UPDATE [13/05/07 – 04:39]: Lindsey has removed me from her myspace friends list again literally minutes after I know she read this entry. I sent a message saying I dont understand, but if that’s the way she wants it, I’ll delete all her numbers, Email and messenger addresses. I never got any reply from her, and I know she has read the message, so that’s what I have done, deleted all contact details and all her messages/comments on myspace. I am not going to waste energy on Lindsey, I want to put all my energy into my relationship with Ali, she is the most important thing in my life at the moment, I am not going to let anything distract me from that. I’m sad that Lindsey can’t cope with just being friends, disappointed would be a better word, but I’ll just say goodbye and wish her best of luck in the future. I still thinks she’s special, but the bottom line is it wasn’t meant to be!