Again technology is testing my patience. As I said previously I bought myself an external enclosure for my 300GB slave drive from my old PC. It was working absolutely fine last night, I [safely] unplugged it from Windows and powered down the laptop and external housing. In the morning when I plugged the disk back in into the laptop, Windows failed to recognise it, despite it appearing in device manager. Upon further investigation I realised that the partition table had gotten corrupted and I couldn’t fix it in the external housing as the repair software could only repair ‘fixed’ disks. So I had to take the disk out of the housing and put it in someone else’s tower to fix the partition table. But it’s had a undesired side effect of unknown data corruption on the disk itself. But it doesn’t seem to be too bad, I’ve found a few corrupted files so far, only time will tell on the rest, some 150GB of data.
I have also started sending messages to some people on myspace around my area and around my age group. I will just have to wait and see how many if any of the people who I messaged reply. I don’t expect a reply really but what the hell, I have nothing to lose by writing a few messages apart from time and a little bandwidth. I do just want friendship right now, I still hope in a way that somehow things can work out between myself and Erin but I am not counting on that. If another romantic opportunity does come along I am not going to turn it down because I am holding out for something that may never be. I already feel a lot better about the whole situation, I have been sleeping nights and last night I even was asleep before midnight, that hasn’t happened for some time. I am making a point of getting up at 9:30am so I can make the most of my day, so staying up all night every night is a thing of the past. I can’t build a life if I am almost completely nocturnal. Let’s take some chances and see what happens, nothing ventured, nothing gained and all that bollocks. One thing that always bugs me though is when people say “there’s plenty more fish in the sea”. I bet it’s only people that are happily in relationships that say that. I’ve never heard a single unhappy person say that. Besides there was one fish that I want and I think she would be catch of the millennium, and I think by now you should know who I am referring to. Although while searching out corrupted files I did find some pictures of (another ex) Ali stored in a backup directory and that brought back memories of how she made me feel, mostly bad feelings but some pleasant feelings as well, but I’m not going to dwell on it!
