Over the last few days myself and Erin have been spending more time together and it’s amazing how easily we slipped back into the way we were; just without the bad issues. I have been a lot happier and haven’t been drinking either. Everyone will say that I am not drinking because of Erin but to be honest that isn’t true. I want to stop drinking for myself to get out of this lifestyle and have a more coherent lifestyle to fit in with family life. I am actively looking for alternative employment as I am getting fed up with working all these club nights that are happening right now in Voodoo. I want to have a full time weekday 9 – 5 and still be able to work Friday nights which are live nights at Voodoo and the occasional Saturday night when there is live music on. Mainly because I want to keep my hand in so I don’t lose all the skills that I have obtained through working regularly. If you stop engineering for any length of time then your skills become rusty. It’s not like forgetting how it’s done, it’s more like having to re-familiarise yourself with sound engineering again. Besides I enjoy the engineering work, I just don’t enjoy the DJ babysitting jobs and I would also like to have a regular incoming coming in as work is erratic during the summer while the students are away. Anyway myself and Erin have been looking at flights for October so I can spend my birthday with Erin and airfare is surprisingly cheap, less than £500 for the flights and only about £60 for the rail journey to and from Gatwick. I am determined not to mess it up this time around as I have been very lucky to have Erin back in my life as she has every right to never talk to me again, but it seems that we are unbelievably drawn to each other; almost like a moth to a flame, let’s hope that I don’t get burnt! Think POSTIVE vibes…
