Mr Snappy!
The last few days haven’t been the best because I have been feeling ill. I have been snappy and my tolerance has dropped drastically. I have been snapping at Erin over the tiniest thing and haven’t really been very sociable at all. Little things have been annoying me, for example whenever I am using the computer, Conner is resting his head on my shoulder, which is fine on most occasions. But last night he was there on my shoulder chewing on his quesadillas which was really bugging me, so much so that I have to stop what I was doing and walk away. It’s annoying when someone is chewing right in your ear anyway but normally I can tune it out, but last night it really got to me. I think that it’s a combination of things, I’m feeling a little home sick, the lack of sea air is driving me crazy, Kansas is about as far from the sea as you can get on mainland America. Also my frustrations about not being able to work and contribute financially, spending most of my time staring at the same four walls and becoming ill was the straw that broke the camels back. I am finding it hard to adapt to being around someone almost constantly, don’t get me wrong I really do love spending time with Erin and Conner, it’s just that I feel a little isolated at times, having no friends to hang out with here. Because I have been alone for so many years I tend to isolate myself away when I am feeling ill, it’s really hard to allow someone to take care of me. Eventually I will adapt to the situation but it will take time after spending the past six years alone. I spent so many years alone wishing to have someone around all the time but the reality is that now I have that I want to have space away from the relationship! I know that sounds incredibly bad but it’s true, if I was working in a workplace being around different people then it would be easier. It’s the lack of diversity that’s killing me, my days consists of; getting up, taking Conner to pre-school, sit around the apartment all day, walk to the office to pick up Erin, go out to Erin’s mother’s to pick up Conner, come home, usually cook some food, then off to bed to repeat the cycle all over again. I’m not the best at dealing with routine, I need a fresh challenge, new faces, different conversations, that’s why I chose a career as a sound technician as it’s different every day, a fresh challenge, different people
More bad news for the world of motorsport. Subaru have pulled out of next season’s World Rally Championship hot on the heels of their Japanese counterparts Suzuki. Yet another Japanese car firm have pulled out of motorsport because of the global financial downturn. The World Rally Championship will not be the same without Subaru as they have competed since 1989 and have built their road car reputation on their success with their Impreza model in the WRC. The Subaru Impreza powered Britons Colin McRae
